There are many people who are unhappy, miserable and have suicidal thoughts. They are so desperate that they look for extreme measures and don’t care about consequences. Some of them turn to satanism to find the last hope. Here is an example of such request and my answer to it.
“I want to commit suicide. But if I do that im going to hell so why not just sell my soul and enjoy the last few moments of fame and riches until its all over… my life already feels over. Might as well sell my soul.”
It’s not so easy in your situation. Selling soul is about love. You make a connection to Satan, you give yourself out of love. But if you want to die, it means you don’t love yourself and you have nothing to offer (you can’t really love without loving yourself), your soul is already in different place in a way as if you lost it anyway.
Being miserable is exactly that, your thoughts and emotions are as much far away from your soul and its power as possible. That is why you hate your life and want to end it. By doing so you will connect with your soul again and it will be wonderful experience, you finally will be full again, yourself, in power. This is your natural state.
In physical life we have a choice to focus on what we want (free will), choose what we want. Your soul wants the same as you (there is no one controlling you or your faith). However if you focus on something else, you are hurt, always. Every hurtful feeling feels that way is because you feel what your soul does not. If you align with your soul, you feel great.
So basically what I am telling you is that you still have freedom to choose and you can align with your soul in this life, then your life will be reflecting your soul’s vision. Satan and demons just help us to be aligned with ourselves and them and that feels fucking great, however you must take the first step. Nobody will drag you there forcefully. That’s a downside of a free will. If your life sucks, YOU NEED TO CHANGE IT, nobody will do it for you magically, even Satan won’t do it. However He waits for your first steps so He can push you a bit further – at first subtly but the closer you are vibrationally to divine beings as Him (divine beings know they power, they don’t doubt it, they have no complexes) His influence will be stronger and He will be able to help you more.
To make you understand more that process, know this that demons do not have bodies, they don’t experience contrast in such full scope as we so they don’t misalign with their inner power. If you want to connect with them you must first align with yours, then your vibrations will rise and you will be able to feel, sense demons in a way they can help you. At the moment they just can bring you more of what you already have – misery, because they give you only that what you self vibrate but without all full potential that you might have.
Path of satanism is a path of power but there is no power in something you haven’t achieve yourself. Sure, you can use others help but only if you find your own strength and give some of them to others so they will do things for you. It works with humans, it works the same with demons.
If you want to die it means you are trapped, powerless so you have nothing to offer to anyone, even yourself and that is why it sucks so badly. Your soul is so powerful that you can’t even imagine. Demons know this and that is why they want your soul because if you are one with your soul, you radiate with energy, you connect with demons so you can in unison create things. You empower yourself, demons empower you, you empower them. Similar attracts similar.
Either way, whatever you choose, you will be happy again, no matter if you make it in this life or you will achieve it in death. It’s a perfect set up, because you can’t screw things. Your soul always wins, even if you loose your life, because all things you ever wanted in life, they live in your soul, so when you connect with it, you will create those things for yourself on spiritual plane and soon they will appear on physical plane as well. Many artists and people who fought and died for an idea had success only after they died… because they created resistance when they were alive which was gone when they died. But it doesn’t have to be this way, success can be summoned while being alive as well. Happiness is not an illusory state, lots of people are happy, including myself.
It’s not easy, especially in your condition because every thought is an energy that creates a path so the next energy flow have easier to follow it. If you get used to create shit in your life, your thoughts automatically follow that bad programming and becomes effortless… Whenever you try something different, it’s easy to slip on old road that will pull you in like a giant magnet. Every different thought and emotion may feel unreal, not true at that moment. It’s fucking hard to drag your thoughts out of the whole you dig yourself. I know it may seem like others did it but the truth is, they were just showing you bad things and you followed it, own it and you will realize that you have power to change, if others are at fault, you depower yourself because you think there is nothing to do, but this is so not true! It is always a possible to get out of that mess, because your will is free and you have strength to do it, the only obstacle is lack of faith that you can do it. Many people were at the bottom: homeless, alone or terminally ill and they were able to recover from that and now they are rich, in great relationships and healthy. IT IS POSSIBLE! I did it and many people around did it. There are many stories of success that can help you. If you don’t know what to do yourself, find those who achieved what you want and hear them out, learn from them and do the same but in your own way.
Often those who were in the very bottom of that misery pit achieved more then average people who just coped with life fine, because the worse you feel, the biggest counter thought your soul summons, so your dreams are so fucking big that it hurts immensely not to follow them. You have huge potential that is uncovered.
Circumstances doesn’t matter, they will change if you change yourself (permanently, small step is not enough, you must create a new way of thinking to see it manifesting in your life, then you can move on to another improvement, steadily but step by step).
There is a huge barrier between words of success and happiness and total misery and depression. This makes so much harder to believe and see better world but it exists, sometimes very close yet so far. If you are angered by people who have what you should have, it means you compare yourself to them and see that you DON’T HAVE it. So you focus on LACK of what you want and you get only more of that. Admiring people or what they did to get what you want focus you on your dream and it feels good. It connects you with your inner power and gives you strength to achieve the same, but only if you persistently do it.
I was miserable when I was a kid. I was alone, too empathic so I focused on others feelings not mines. I compromised my dreams for the sake of others and it sucked. It made me feel worthless. But I red books about power of thoughts and started to practice it. Those new thoughts felt fake but I kept repeating them as long as they felt real and when it happened, reality adjusted to those thoughts. That is basically how magick works. You make strong and persistent change in yourself and reality MUST MIRROR IT.
People are miserable because they see bad things around, focus on them, believe in them and summon them again to their life. But both bad and good exists simultaneously. It’s your choice to see what you want. So instead looking passively, you force the change in you, DESPITE CONDITIONS! Don’t wait for others or for circumstances to change. They never will. Force the change in yourself firs, so believe that you can get want, even if don’t have it, even if everything around shows you the opposite of it, believe it IN SPITE OF IT. If you do this, slowly conditions outside will start to reflect your new thoughts. And when you realize that you have done it, you start to feel your power and attract other people who have power into your life. Also demons start showing around STRENGTHENING YOU EVEN MORE so you get more and more, because there are no limits.
Miracles do happen but they don’t happen without reason. They must be worked out in one way or another. Your mind is a powerful tool and demons wait for you to discover it so they could join you to create things you and they want together, because if more spirits work on something, the more powerful and persistent that creation becomes.
I hope I explained you a bit how it works. There is no simple magickal solution, but there is a powerful magickal source in yourself that just waits to be uncovered. It’s like with well – you start digging it in hope to find water but you have no certainty and you have to spend some energy to do it till you find water. Sometimes it doesn’t work out so you try in another place. If you won’t give up you find the right spot and succeed eventually. You can take it and start digging your happiness well or just give up – your choice.
In case you wanted to change your life, you can start with some simple books as books of Luise Hay (I’m sure you can found some pirated versions to download on the net if you don’t have money to buy them) – woman who cured herself out of cancer, became rich and successful. The bigger problems the greater reward is to gain… Miracles are around us, see them, believe in them, summon them into your life. You have the power and you are never alone, demons are just waiting for you to take the first step but it is YOU who need to take it.
I wanted also recommend a friend’s GREAT article who suffered of depression and suicidal thoughts herself but finally managed to cope with it.
Also don’t miss other great other posts of the same author, going deeper into the topic HERE.